Friday, June 22, 2018

My Unwanted Companions

Darkness threatens to close in on me. I deny its existence because I can't let myself go there again. I desperately look to any light I can find. Tears come easily, often without a reason. People ask me what's wrong. How can I explain what's wrong when I don't have the answer myself?

Depression and anxiety have been constant companions in my life. They fade into the background for awhile, but never truly disappear. Living with them is a never ending battle. One I'm determined not to lose. With the recent suicides of well known public figures, depression is once again pushed into the spotlight, but for how long? Until another suicide makes the news?

Awareness of this issue needs to be an ongoing dialogue. It's more than just a sad moment. People suffering from depression can't "pull themselves out of it".  For years I felt like a failure because my depression and anxiety crept up no matter how long it lay dormant. It's taken me years to accept that this is a part of me. Its' the way that I'm wired. I'll always have episodes and I'll be okay. I've  survived each one and will in the future. So I'm not a failure......I'm a survivor.

I've never felt stronger that this is the time to tell my story. My writer's devotion this summer is to talk about my journey and the tools I've collected over the years that give me hope and means to overcome this disease that crosses over into all walks of life. No matter age, race, socio-economic status, or gender, it doesn't discriminate. I hope that my story will help anyone who feels alone in this struggle. You're not alone and there are people who will support you. Don't be afraid or ashamed to ask for help. As you read my story this summer, you'll see that my mistake at the beginning of this journey was not speaking up. Stay strong.

Saturday, February 17, 2018

An American Student

Journal Entry One
"This is a lock down" echoed through the sound system today sending my heart into overdrive. My body couldn't help but to react to the words even though my teacher told us we would have the drill today.  Huddled in the dark corner of my classroom, my mind raced with thoughts of what if....  What if it was real this time?  What if a gunman shot through our locked door?  My teacher always places herself between us and the door. What if the gunman shot her? Would I be next?  Relief flooded me when the news of the drill was over and we could go back to our normal day. But what about next time? Will it be a drill or real?  
  I guess this must be normal...right? To worry about these things when I go to school every day? 

                                                              An American Student

"American 15-19 olds are 8200% more likely to die from gun violence than children in any other developed nations."  Dr. Jill Stein

Monday, October 23, 2017

Enchant Cover Reveal

It's my pleasure to help out with Micalea Smeltzer's cover reveal for Enchant. I can't wait until it's released! Check it out.

Mara Pryce never imagined that her life was anything but normal and then a strange gray-eyed young man appears at her graduation. When he vanishes without a trace, she’s convinced he’s a figment of her imagination. Then he appears again and shatters her whole world. Mara is an enchanter, part of an ancient line of Wiccan power, and a war is raging—one of good and evil—between the Enchanted and the Iniquitous. The Iniquitous want her dead and it’s Theodore’s job as her protector to keep her safe. When Mara and Theodore arrive at a safe house, where Mara will remain hidden while learning about her powers, they find that the real threat might be a little closer to home than they want to believe.

 Release Date: November 17th
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Sunday, September 3, 2017

Voice of a Child

 It's approaching fall and County Fair time in my neck of the woods. Nothing like the sounds of  laughter and screams coming from the brave riders spun in circles in the air. The smells of popcorn, caramel apples, funnel cakes...... this in one of my favorite times of the year.  A scene in Sketches of My Soul developed from the memories I have of the Fair. However,  Tegan's experiences are relayed through a child of a parent who abuses alcohol. I created Tegan to give a voice to those children.

  Children with alcoholic parents share common traits and behaviors. One being an overdeveloped sense of responsibility for the parent and as well as others.  The excerpt above gives a glimpse inside the head of a teen who wars with that responsibility of staying home with her drunk father or going out with friends.

This is a subject dear to my heart and one that I want to raise awareness of. The NACOA has resources for children of all age groups who have a parent who drinks too much. It stresses to the children that it is not their fault and they aren't alone. Here is the link to the part of their website that specifically focuses on Teens of alcoholics. If you know someone who could use the support or you need it yourself,  I hope you check it out and find it valuable.

*Let's not forget the people of Houston, Texas and keep them in our prayers.*

Wednesday, August 2, 2017

Ugly Beautiful Girl Cover Reveal

Today is the cover reveal for Ugly Beautiful Girl by Tracy Krimmer. This cover reveal is organized by Lola's Blog Tours. Ugly Beautiful GirlUgly Beautiful Girl By Tracy Krimmer Genre: Coming of Age/ Contemporary Romance Age category: New Adult Release Date: September 27, 2017
Blurb: Nerd. Weird. Ugly. That's me. And I don't want it to be anymore. Now is my time to make my mark on the world. My college roommate doesn't make it easy. Neither does her brother, Jesse, but for completely different reasons. He makes me feel things I've never felt before. Wanted. Important. Beautiful. But we can't be together because it isn't real. Someone like him could never fall for someone like me. We aren't meant to fit together. Even if I fall apart without him.
You can find Ugly Beautiful Girl on Goodreads You can pre-order Ugly Beautiful Girl here on Amazon Ugly Beautiful Girl will be available on Kindle Unlimited Tracy KrimmerAbout the Author: Tracy's love of writing began at nine years old. She wrote stories about aliens at school, machines that did homework for you, and penguins. Now she pens books and short stories about romance. She loves to read a great book, whether it be romance or science fiction, or any genre in between, or pop popcorn and catch up on her favorite TV shows or movies. She's been known to crush a candy or two as well. Her loves include fitness, reading, coffee, dogs, and naps (not in that order), and her dislikes are blue cheese, cold weather, and burpees. You can find and contact Tracy here: - Website - Twitter - Facebook - Goodreads - Amazon - Bookbub - Instagram - Newsletter banner Lola's Blog Tours

Thursday, July 20, 2017

Love Summer Reading!!

I'm basking in the glory of my summer right now. Reading and writing everyday along with soaking up the is good.  I think it's important for everyone to get lost in a good story. I've teamed up with other authors for a huge multigenre summer promotion of free and 99c books. Every type of reader should be able to find something of interest, both fiction and nonfiction.  Click below to browse the selection of books.

My newly released coming of age light novel is also on sale right now for 99c  😄

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Book Release

Today is the day! Sketches of My Soul launches today.

I'm excited for you to meet Tegan and Andrew.  This story took me awhile to write and I had many eyes on the story to help me. I want to thank Harmony Kent for working with me on the first set of edits. Also,  thanks to Mary at Ascend Editing who did an in-depth evaluation. Her knowledge is invaluable.

Here is an excerpt from the story:

Sketches of My Soul

   I reached the mailbox at the end of my driveway and sifted through the mail. Maybe I’d find a notice that I’d won a trip to another country, like Italy. I’d meet a hot Italian boy with a love of culture and music … stay there and study art …    The sound of spraying water pulled me out of my thoughts of Italian boys. My jaw dropped at the sight next door. Holy hotness! A shirtless guy that looked a little older than me, sprayed suds off a black jeep in my sixty-eight-year-old neighbor’s driveway. His muscles on full display. A tattoo flexed on his bicep with the flick of the hose. His dark hair curled at the ends and dipped into his face. Where did he come from and why was he at Mrs. White’s house?  I swiped a palm over my mouth to make sure I didn’t have drool dripping down my chin.

Just then Mrs. White zoomed up to check her mail on a hot-pink scooter with helmet to match. The sight of her sparked a grin. “Hi, Mrs. White. I like your new wheels.”

 “Hello, Tegan. She’s pretty, ain’t she?” Mrs. White rubbed her hand over the scooter. Bits of her white hair peeked out from under her helmet. Dark circles framed her emerald eyes.

 “Yes, she sure is.” I nodded. Mrs. White was like a grandma to me. I didn’t have grandparents growing up, and she’d taken me in like one of her own. She said that she saw a lot of herself in me. My eyes slipped from her to the shirtless wonder washing his jeep in her driveway. Mrs. White’s eyes followed mine and she let out a squeal, causing me to jump and fling my mail. “Do you remember Drewy? He decided to pay his grandma a visit. About time.”  She waved a hand in the air and called out, “Drewy come over here and say hello to Tegan.”

I dropped down to gather my scattered mail. Drewy. A fuzzy image a curly brown haired boy formed in my mind. We used to play together when we were little. He and his mom spent a lot of time at Mrs. White’s. One day, they up and moved to Michigan. I hadn’t seen him since. It never crossed my mind that it could be him next door. I rose and nearly tossed the mail all over again. Drewy McHottie was Andy!