Saturday, January 10, 2015

One Breath at a Time

                                                               
 
 
                                                      
   

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The Crash
 
 
   I stomped the snow off of my boots with Bethany bundled in my arms. I lowered her to the kitchen floor and made sure she could stand on her chubby one year old legs, then began the process of freeing her from the snowsuit.
 
  Brad called from the entry hall that we had five messages since the time we'd left the house to go out to eat.  I heard the muffled voices coming from the answering machine.
 
"Why would a detective from Summit County call me? I have three messages to call him back," Brad's eyebrows furrowed.  He studied the piece of paper he scribbled the name and number on.
 
"I have no idea, " I shrugged. Bethany now free ran through the kitchen, her bottom sagged in her little jeans. I sighed. "I need to change Bethany. Are you going to call him back?" Bethany squealed and ran when she figured out my intentions.
 
"Yeah, I 'll call from upstairs so I can hear." Brad climbed the steps and disappeared.
 
 
 I caught my curly headed little girl and swung her in my arms. She let out a stream of giggles.
 
"Britany! Will you please get your sister a pair of pajamas and bring to me?" I called to my eight year old. The stomping on the stairs told me that she heard my request.
 
"Tam! Come here," my husband's voice sounded thick and raspy.  My insides fluttered a bit, not sure what I was about to hear.

I reached the top of the steps and lowered Bethany to hall floor. She took off to her bedroom. My bedroom door was slightly ajar, I pushed it opened. My husband sat on the floor with his back against the bed, his legs bent at the knee, and held his head in his hands.

I swallowed, "What happened?" My heart sped up.

He lifted his head to look at me. His hazel eyes were red rimmed and glassy. "That wasn't' a detective who called. It was a coroner."

I drew my eyebrows together.  "What did he want?"

"He said Mickey was in a car wreck today?" Brad dropped his head again. His broad shoulders shook.

"Is...is he okay?" My mind wouldn't put it together. Refused to.

"He's dead." Brad choked out the words.

"NO! NO!" My words sounded far away. I wasn't even sure if  they came from me. My heart thudded against the walls of my chest. "What are we going to? Oh my God! What are we going to do?" The words launched out of me without warning.  Brad's arms enclosed around me. He pulled me to his chest and told me to calm down.

"Britany will hear you..," Brad never got to finish. Britany stood in the doorway of our bedroom. Tears streamed from her blue eyes.


 
 


Friday, January 2, 2015

The Ugly Truth


There is no truer statement in the world for me. Sigh. Learning things about yourself and people you thought you knew can be sobering.

 If you've been one of my regular readers you know that I've mentioned the nag inside of me saying its time to write my memoir. Get my story out. Believe me, writing about myself is so not what I want to do. I can't wrap my head around how and where to get started. So I'm jumping in head first. If I drown in the process so be it. Enough babble.  Today I start and will see where each post leads me.

The Gist

 Fifteen years ago my husband and I buried a nephew who died in a car crash. He moved in with us to get a fresh start on life. My husband got his nephew a job where he worked, cosigned for a car for him, helped him to get his first apartment,  and so on. He loved life and began coaching basketball. He died in a car crash on his way to coach his seventh graders. We got a call from a state trooper telling us. He would have turned twenty-five that year.

 
  The next twelve years we watched my sister-in-law and niece struggle with the loss of a son and brother. They were never the same to be honest. Then we got a phone call one evening from my niece. My sister-in-law was murdered. Shot three times in the chest and once in the arm because she woke up her live in boyfriend.

  Not only did I see this destroy what hope my niece hung onto, it nearly destroyed my husband. Guilt almost ate him alive for not seeing the signs of domestic violence, for not protecting her. The guilt was then replaced by anger. Getting revenge on his sister's murderer consumed both my niece and my husband. We faced the scumbag in court. He never once apologized for his actions.
Nine months ago, my niece died suddenly of heart failure at the age of thirty five leaving two children ages twelve and fourteen. My family increased to four children.

  This is the story in nutshell. Now for the rest. During all of  this I've learned truths about life, people, and myself. Some of it is ugly, dirty, and nasty. Some is enlightening, pretty, and stabilizing.
My new year's resolution is to continue with this story. I'm determined to stick with it. That is when I'm not escaping out of the adult world and into writing about my latest teen heroin.


Saturday, December 13, 2014

Big Hair and Bullies

    I rocked big hair, spandex, and leg warmers in high school. Did I mention I mastered the Rubik's Cube?(not really, I wish).  Michael Jackson was Bad, Madonna was a Virgin, and Bon Jovi was Livin' on a Prayer when I was a teenager.

Much has changed since I was a starry eyed teenager, but something unfortunately that remains a constant to the adolescent is bullying in one form or another.  You remember, I know you do. The girls that would spread rumors about you, leave you out, talk about your clothes, call you names, and so on.

  Today the rumors and nasty comments meant to humiliate you can be posted online for all to see.  Both boys and girls experience bullying.  There are differences in the way they're bullied, but the outcome is the same...it hurts.

Here are some facts:

  • Boys are more likely to be bullied physically, but girls are more likely to be bullied by rumors or being left out.
  • Girls bully to feel a sense of importance and control.
  • Boys usually get bullied by other boys, whereas girls tend to get bullied by both boys and girls.
  • Girls experience bullying on school property more often than boys.

The good news? Today we are more aware of the seriousness of bullying than we were in the past. A good resource for parents and teens is girlshealth.gov.  What are your experiences with bullying? Do you have any advice?

I'll end with a quote from Taylor Swift.
Seventeen Magazine photo by Elizabeth Denton



You're not alone. Tell someone and seek support.......Teens Against Bullying.


Saturday, December 6, 2014

Interview with Karen Rock author of A League of her Own


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This is my stop during the blog tour for A League of Her Own by Karen Rock. This blog tour is organized by Lola's Blog Tours. The blog tour runs from 1 till 14 December, you can view the complete tour schedule on the website of Lola’s Blog Tours.

A League of Her OwnA League of Her Own
By Karen Rock
Genre: Contemporary Romance
Age category: Adult
Release Date: 1 December, 2014

Blurb:
He was attractive, talented…and way off limits.

Heather Gadway may have been a world-class college pitcher and a top university coach, but she's a rank amateur when it comes to managing the Falcons, her father's struggling minor league team. And when it comes to managing her aggravating attraction to Garrett Wolf, their talented new pitcher. It's going to be difficult enough to make it as the first female manager in the league and prove to her overly critical father she's worthy. No distractions. No missteps. And certainly no romances with players. Everything stands between them—including their troubled pasts—even as Heather's world falls apart and Garrett's the one who's there to catch her…


You can find A League of Her Own on Goodreads.

You can buy A League of Her Own here:
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- eHarlequin

Karen RockAbout the Author:
Karen Rock is an award-winning YA and adult contemporary romance author. She holds a master’s degree in English and worked as an ELA instructor before becoming a full-time writer. Currently she writes for Harlequin Heartwarming and her first novel for the line, WISH ME TOMORROW, has won the 2014 Gayle Wilson Award of Excellence, the 2014 Golden Quill Contest and a finalist in the Published Maggie Awards. The first novel in her co-authored YA series, CAMP BOYFRIEND, has been a finalist in the Booksellers Best and Golden Leaf awards.

You can find and connect with Karen here:
- Website
- Facebook
- Twitter
- Goodreads
- Tumblr
- Quarterly Newsletter

There is a tour wide giveaway for the blog tour of A League of Her Own. These are the prizes you can win:
- a 100$ Amazon gift card (INT)
- a set of signed paperback of Wish Me Tomorrow, His Hometown Girl, Someone Like You and A League of Her Own (US only)
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     Interview of Karen Rock 

by TC Booth

(Author of  A Writer's Devotion)



What inspired you to become a writer?

Thank you so much for having me on A Writer’s Devotion! Growing up reading books, I was swept away to amazing places, captivated by plots that made me think and feel, and got to know characters who felt like friends. The world of books inspired me to want to write my own novels and give readers the joy I always feel when I begin a new story. Although I love and read all genres, I quickly realized that contemporary fiction drew me the most as a story-teller. I’m interested in other people, their relationships, how they interact with and make their place in the world… I was inspired by books that spoke the truth about life and love. Whether it’s in my Young Adult novels or my Adult romances, I always strive to tell a compelling, emotional story with relatable characters who will touch my readers.

What book(s) have you written that would you like to tell us about?

I’ve written five books in the past year and a half for Harlequin Heartwarming and tackled realistic issues while creating stirring romances. WISH ME TOMORROW has won the 2014 Golden Quill award for Sweet/Traditional romance and the 2014 Gayle Wilson Award of Excellence for Contemporary Series Fiction.  I’m especially proud of this book as it featured the true-to-life struggles of a single father recovering from cancer. His path to lasting love touched me deeply as I wrote it and I’m glad that it moved others as well. I’m draw to complex characters and issues such as Jodi, the heroine in HIS HOMETOWN GIRL, who battles to find a way to pay for the high-level care her autistic son needs and comes to realize that love and acceptance is what they need most of all. I was also inspired by my grandfather’s experience with PTSD when I wrote my September novel, SOMEONE LIKE YOU. I wanted to feature a wounded war hero who doesn’t believe himself worthy of the life he’s been spared or the love that’s waiting for him. Addiction was a central issue in my December baseball romance, A LEAGUE OF HER OWN, in which a young woman finds it hard to entrust her heart to a recovering alcoholic on her father’s baseball team because of her addict-mother’s struggles and betrayals. Finally, I’m thrilled for my April 2015 novel, RAISING THE STAKES, as it’s set where I live, The Adirondacks. I got to incorporate so much of our gorgeous nature and wildlife, the perfect place for my heroine to come to terms with a traumatic attack and to heal in the arms of a strong, good man.

 Do you have any favorite childhood books?

I have read the entire ANNE OF GREEN GABLES series at least five times! It’s such a beautiful, moving story… and who couldn’t love Anne with an “e” J

Do you have any advice for aspiring authors?

My advice is to write what moves you and not worry about trying to chase after trends, what’s selling or what’s “hot”. If you write with conviction, from the heart, you will have a career that fulfills you and fans that will love your unique stories.

                                                     

 

A League of Her Own by Karen  Rock

  Excerpt-The First Kiss


“I liked working with the kids today,” he said into her ear, his mouth so close to her flesh that the fine hairs on the back of her neck rose. She relished the sweet brush of his knuckles against the side of her throat as he flipped her ponytail over her shoulder.


“I know how hard that must have been for you,” she said, doing her best to appear cool on the outside. Inside she was a web of conflicting emotions.


“You’re getting me do a lot things I promised myself I wouldn’t.”
When she pulled back, he met her look with grave intensity. “Like what?”
Then came the silence. The long, long silence. Their eyes met until she dropped hers, her heart thumping faster. Red lights flashed. Stop! Leave! Retreat! But her tangled emotions wouldn’t let her wriggle free.
His hand caressed the sensitive spot beneath her chin, and with a gentle pressure, Garrett raised her head until she stared into his deep blue eyes again.
“This.”
Without waiting for permission, he brushed his lips gently over hers. Ohhh…a shiver went through her entire body. The gentle caress melted the last of her defenses into a gooey heap.
His fingers slid along her jawline, and the warmth of his touch radiated past her skin and into her bloodstream. Goosebumps rose on her arms and legs, and her ears rang with the staccato thrum of her heart. He slipped his hand from her jaw to cradle her head. His fingers pulled her ponytail loose and tunneled through the hair that fell down around her shoulders.
He pulled back slightly, his eyes heavy-lidded. His lips hovered above hers, tantalizingly close. The blood pounded so wildly in her veins that she feared he’d sense the vibration. A magnetic pull took over the small distance between their lips. An energy she couldn’t resist. So why was Garrett holding back? Her fingers were wrapped around the back of his neck, running through his hair.
And then it hit her. He was giving her a chance to return his kiss. To show him that she wanted him, and the truth was…more complicated than that. Cold reality doused her, and she leaned back.
She’d kissed Garrett. A player. And worse, a recovering alcoholic who might one day relapse. Someone she could, if she wasn’t more vigilant, become addicted to herself. She couldn’t let that happen.
Scrambling to her feet, she saw the wounded look in his eyes before he covered it with a coat of indifference.
“That was wrong,” she blathered, backing away. “I should never—we should never— We’re not right for each other, I—”
He held up a hand as he got to his feet in his fluid way that was stunning to watch. “I get it. We’ll pretend this never happened.” His gaze roamed in every direction but hers.
It was obvious from the way he braced his body, his tense face, that he was taking this wrong. It wasn’t as though she didn’t want him. She just didn’t trust him with her heart. It was too bruised to take another beating. Even if she wasn’t his manager, his past alcoholism and his uncertain future sobriety were things she couldn’t look past.
She opened her mouth to explain, but his mouth twisted, and he held up a hand.
“Really. It’s fine,” he said, the gravel in his voice denying his words. “Would you like me to take you home?”
She shook her head, wishing his eyes hadn’t turned into mirrors, reflecting only what was outside, keeping her from seeing what he was thinking or feeling.
With a small salute, he turned. “See you, Skipper,” he called over his shoulder as he took off farther down the path, leaving her slumped against the tree in the gathering gloom.
There it was. The respectful address she’d wanted from him on and off the field. Only now she knew that she no longer deserved it. Not after how she’d behaved.
The chaos in her mind cleared. She was under a lot of pressure, thinking with her body instead of her head. In other circumstances, she wouldn’t have let Garrett get that intimate with her. He was a member of her team, nothing more.
 
 
 

Saturday, November 1, 2014

My NaNoWri Checklist


On your mark, get set.....WRITE!  Are you ready for National Novel Writing Month?  This is my first time participating and I'm ready for the challenge. I planned all week for the writing marathon. How did I prepare?  Here's a peek at my check list.....

  • Character Profile...................check
  • Story plan with scene plots.........................check
  • Talk with family about my goal for support and understanding...........check
  • Found a NaNoWriting Buddy............................check
  • Read Writing Tips from past winners..................................check
  • Have a Writing Motivation Pin Board.................................................check

Armed with my coffee, notes, laptop, and music playlist, I am ready.


Good Luck Everyone!!


Thursday, October 23, 2014

Meet the Author of Thieving Forest

Interview with Martha Conway


 I'm honored  to be part of Martha Conway's book promotion of the Thieving Forests through WOW!Blog Tours. The book is set in my home state of Ohio in the early 1800's. Head over  to The Muffin to learn about Martha's giveaway & contest.

                                                                              
About the Book                          

Synopsis:

On a humid day in June 1806, on the edge of Ohio's Great Black Swamp, seventeen-year-old Susanna Quiner watches from behind a maple tree as a band of Potawatomi Indians kidnaps her four older sisters from their cabin. With both her parents dead from Swamp Fever and all the other settlers out in their fields, Susanna makes the rash decision to pursue them herself. What follows is a young woman's quest to find her sisters, and the parallel story of her sisters' new lives.

The frontier wilderness that Susanna must cross in order to find her sisters is filled with dangers, but Susanna, armed with superstition and belief in her own good luck, sets out with a naive optimism. Over the next five months, Susanna tans hides in a Moravian missionary village; escapes down a river with a young native girl; discovers an eccentric white woman raising chickens in the middle of the Great Black Swamp; suffers from snakebite and near starvation; steals elk meat from wolves; and becomes a servant in a Native American village. The vast Great Black Swamp near Toledo, Ohio, which was once nearly the size of Connecticut, proves a formidable enemy. But help comes from unlikely characters, both Native American and white.

Both a quest tale and a tale of personal transformations, Thieving Forest follows five pioneer women and one man as they contend with starvation, slavery, betrayal, and love. It paints a startling new picture of life in frontier Ohio with its mix of European and Native American communities, along with compelling descriptions of their daily lives. Fast-paced, richly detailed, with a panoramic view of cultures and people, this is a story of a bygone era sure to enthrall and delight.


Meet Author Martha Conway              


Interview by TC Booth



What inspired you to become a writer?

I liked to scribble on the walls when I was a child -- before I could even read, I tried to write. And of course, all the great books I've read have inspired me. When I read something wonderful I think, I want to do that. I always feel the greatest urge to express myself in writing after reading someone else who has done that well.
What book(s) have you written that you would like to tell us about?

My latest book, THIEVING FOREST, has been described as "Little Women meets Last of the Mohicans." I conceived it as a quest novel, but with a twist: the hero is female. It's 1806, and 17-year old Susanna Quiner watches helplessly from behind a tree as her four older sisters are kidnapped by a band of Potawatomi Indians. But all is not what it seems: one of her neighbors is behind the abduction. Left on her own (their parents recently died), Susanna makes the rash decision to follow the Potawatomi herself. What follows is a young woman's journey to save her sisters, and the parallel story of her sisters' new lives.

Do you have any favorite childhood books?
 Little Women, of course! I also loved all the Edward Eager books about magic. And some of the classics, like the Laura Ingalls Wilder books (my protagonist's last name is taken from Laura's mother's maiden name). One favorite, From the Mixed-Up Files of Mrs. Basil E. Frankweiler, was the source of my own childhood fantasy: to run away and to live — not at the Met as the children in the book do— but at my own neighborhood library. I often imagined what I would pack, always including a flashlight so I could read books at night.

Do you have advice for aspiring writers?


Find a writing routine and make it a habit. For a long time I only had one morning, Thursday morning, to write. I had negotiated with my job to get that time off. If I diddled around and did other things, that was it, I had lost my writing time. I soon learned to buckle down and write for two hours. Later, when another morning became available, I had an easier time disciplining myself.

Where can we find you and your books?
You can find THIEVING FOREST on Amazon, the Apple Store, Barnes and Noble, and other online venues, and you can order it at your local bookstore. You can find me here:

Blog: www.marthaconway.com
Twitter: @marthamconway
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/martha.conway.52
Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/23092.Martha_Conway
 More About the Author:
Martha Conway’s first novel 12 Bliss Street (St. Martin’s Minotaur) was nominated for an Edgar Award, and her short fiction has appeared in The Iowa Review, The Mississippi Review, The Quarterly, Folio, Puerto del Sol, Carolina Quarterly, and other publications. She graduated from Vassar College and received her master’s degree in Creative Writing from San Francisco State University. She has reviewed fiction for the San Francisco Chronicle, The San Francisco Review of Books, and The Iowa Review. The recipient of a California Arts Council fellowship in Creative Writing, she has taught at UC Berkeley Extension and Stanford University’s Online Writers’ Studio.ethany Masone Harar graduated with a Bachelor's degree in English from James Madison University and a Masters in Secondary English Education from Virginia Commonwealth University.

Check Out all of the Stops along Martha's Blog Tour


October 13 at The Muffin
interview and giveaway
Oct. 14 at Writer with Dogs
guest post
Oct. 15 at All Things Audry
guest post
Oct. 16 at Book Talk
author showcase
Oct. 17 at Deal Sharing Aunt
guest post and giveaway
Oct. 19 at Writer Unboxed
guest post
Oct. 21 at Katherine Hajer
guest post
Oct. 22 at Caroline Clemmons
guest post
Oct. 23 at Renee’s Pages
guest post
Oct. 24 at A Writer’s Devotion
interview
Oct. 27 at Katherine Hajer
review
Oct. 29 at Words by Webb
interview and review
Nov. 3 at Lisa Haselton’s Reviews and Interviews
interview
Nov. 6 at Escaping Reality Within Pages
guest post, review and giveaway
Nov. 11 at The Lit Ladies
interview
Nov. 12 at Kathleen Pooler
guest post, review and giveaway


Sunday, October 19, 2014

Guest Post by Krysten Hager author of True Colors

Krysten Lindsay Hager


    Krysten Hager is a guest on my blog today as part of her Book Tour of True Colors, organized by Double Decker Books. I've read this book and highly recommend it. Krysten captures the drama of  adolescent girls perfectly through her character Landry's revolving friendships. This is a good read for middle school age on up.  Enjoy Krysten's post as I turn it over to her.





It was a thrilling experience when I first saw the cover of my novel, True Colors. Back when I signed the book contract, I wondered what the cover would look like—I pictured seeing the title, what they’d choose for the picture and background, and seeing my name on it, too. When the time came to discuss the cover, I sent the cover artist a link to my Pinterest board of how I imagined some of the key characters in my book. Then some pictures were emailed to me and one of the girls reminded me of a couple of my cousins. I saw one picture and thought, “Oh, she looks like family. That’s my Landry.” And later, when I saw the entire cover with its poppy cheerful colors and the three other girls on it— it just took my breath away. I briefly wondered if the ”Landry”  model knew anything about being on the cover the book, but it wasn’t until I saw Facebook pictures of writer friends who went to a romance writing conference that I thought more about it. I saw so many of the authors there taking pictures with their male cover models who were also at the conference. I thought, wow, wouldn’t it be amazing to meet my cover model?

            Fast forward two months and I got an email on my Facebook author page from the cover model, Evell. Her friend had seen the book online and showed it to her. I was in shock. She told me the picture was four years old and she was now twenty-two (that was total shock since my character is thirteen and turns fourteen in the story). She was very sweet and we became Facebook friends and then I noticed where she was from—Poland. Not only was that a coincidence since I’m Polish (and I said she looked like some of my family members), but she was also from a town right next to the city where my great-grandfather lived before coming to the United States. There were so many little coincidences—and the fact she even found out about the book is amazing. It’s crazy how fate can play a role in things like that. Plus, she shared some photos of herself and it was surreal getting to see “Landry” in her twenties!

            My birthday was about a week later and Evell wrote a birthday wish on my Facebook wall. She wrote, ““Remember that you’re never gonna lose, either win or learn.” That has become my new motto. Everything about this book writing (and publishing) journey has been a learning experience—it has showed me so much about life, friendships (for one, can you believe I’m still having some of the same conversations about friends that Landry has in the book—and she’s in eighth grade?), and how the universe is anything but random.

As I get feedback on the book from both friends and readers I have never met before, I see how there is so much common ground between all of us. I have had comments from a 76 year-old man telling me he wish he had read this book when his twins were this age and how he can flash back to those days himself, to a single father saying reading it with his girls has helped him understand what they are going through as they deal with their early teen years. I’ve heard from moms with kids dealing with the same friend drama and from friends my age who say that not only does the story bring back memories, but they realize they are still dealing with the same “frenemies” stuff they thought they left behind in junior high. Even my husband said reading the story made him realize how girls that age were going through the same confusion the way boys at that age are/were. The one thing I hear over and over again is, “We all go through it,” and I realize how much we are all connected.

            Right after I wrote this post, I turned on the Oprah interview with Ali MacGraw and Ali was talking about how people in society are all connected….exactly one minute after I had typed that very same thing. Perhaps I need to write a book where the main character wins the lottery…


Author Giveaway Krysten Hager


 True Colors by Krysten Hager


Book Blurb

Every day I walked down the sidewalk to school and wished I were one of the interesting popular girls who ran up with exciting news. Just once I’d like to be one of those girls instead of the being the one who didn’t get invited to things because people “forgot” about me.

Landry gets pushed into trying out for the American Ingénue reality show modeling competition with her two best friends. She doesn’t think she stands a chance, but she advances to the next level in the competition and her friends ignore her when they get cut.

Enter the gorgeous Devon, who also makes the first cut and includes Landry in her clique. Devon becomes the perfect best friend, but can their friendship survive the competition?

Landry hopes her big break could come at any moment, but soon sees there’s much more to modeling. She begins missing out on being with friends and has the chance to have a boyfriend when she meets a boy named Vladi from another school.

Part of Landry wants to be famous (and have her hair look good for once), but part of her just wants to be accepted. She learns about friendships, being true to yourself, and that a good hair conditioner doesn’t hurt.

Author Bio

Krysten Lindsay Hager is an author and book addict who has never met a bookstore she didn’t like. She’s worked as a journalist and also writes middle grade, YA, humor essays, and adult fiction. TRUE COLORS is her bestselling debut novel from Astraea Press. She is originally from Michigan and has lived in South Dakota, Portugal, and currently resides in Southern Ohio where you can find her reading and writing. She received her master’s in American Culture from the University of Michigan-Flint.

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